God’s timing is always perfect.
Sometimes that is hard for us to see.
Sometimes we have to wait to see it. Looking back it seems
so clear.
But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
One could say that having babies less than 13
months apart isn't good timing. But looking back, having Katie and Mikey so close was a blessing. They were like twins. They loved and cherished each other even after
they grew individual personalities.
If you have ever danced you know how important timing is.
When a couple like Julie Wilson and Mike danced it was beautiful. They danced
as one. If one of them had even been a second off it would have been less than desirable
to watch (and probably wouldn’t have gotten them a State championship).
Mikey told many of his peeps that he didn't want to die in a
hospital bed. That was part of his decision to come home on Hospice. He even
refused the bed that Hospice brought when he first arrived. But after a few
days his back started to hurt. He needed to be propped up to be comfortable and
that was hard to do in a regular bed. I finally talked Mike
into using the bed that was downstairs. “It just allows for you to raise the
head up and down, Mike,” I bartered. He agreed. But now how was that going to
happen? Mike was getting weaker. The bed that was in that small room was full
size. This wasn't going to be easy. Timing would be everything.
His father and I met in the hall and I said, “I think . . .”
“I’ve got this,” He interrupted.
“But . . .”
“I’ve got this.”
“But you know we can . . .”
“I’ve got this!” Big Mike interjected again.
I relaxed. I said, “OK.” I sat back and watched Big Mike’s
perfect timing play out.
This needed to be orchestrated. I’m sure Mikey is proud
watching the choreography of his father that went on behind the scenes, as he
watches the replay on that big screen TV up in heaven. Big Mike rallied the
troops that were here. One quick call to Mikey’s friends and family members and
everyone was ready to go.
Aunt Cathy cradled Mikey ever so gently in her arms while
Amy held the morphine drip. As they sat Mikey down in a chair in the room
someone set off a timer.
A group came in and disassembled the bed and rushed it out
the door and down the hall. Scott, Bryon, Bear and others led by Big Mike came in and
assembled the Hospice bed and plugged it in. Sheets and blankets were already
on it and within 6 minutes from the time Mikey got up he was back in bed.
It’s amazing what love can do. So honored that all these
people were part of Mikey’s life.
Looking back, I see God’s perfect timing for Mikey’s departure
to heaven. We had anticipated many months of dependence on oxygen. Being
tethered to a tank. Mike didn't want that. We talked about it a few times and I
could not get him out of that mindset. Mike was always so giving. He gave until
there was no more left to give. I would tell him that this would be our time to
give back to him. But he would get agitated about it.
For we are God’s
workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in
advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10
I have said to people, “If there were ever such a thing as a
beautiful death, my son was granted it.” All of his loved ones there to support
him. He was able to speak up until the very end. He said his goodbyes and I’ll
see you laters. Never alone.
I am so thankful for God’s perfect timing for Mike. For me.
For you.
‘O Lord, you have
searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive
my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are
familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it
completely, O Lord. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my
mother’s womb. Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me
were written in your book before one of them came to be.’
Psalm 139
Blessings to you. Love, love,
love.
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