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As I traveled my path as a single mother I was often subject
to worry. Things are difficult when you are a single mom with two kids and when
one is given the label “handicapped” (not my label but the one given with the
diagnosis of CF at the time) – well, you can only imagine.
I was very blessed to be working at Air Wisconsin when my
oldest two were born. I stopped working after Mikey’s diagnosis of CF and
cleaned houses, bar tended and babysat to help make ends meet. Young children
have lots of needs and the added expense of CF was worrisome.
Psalm 37:25 I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
When I decided to go back to work full time I set my sights
on the best company in the area – KC. It took a few weeks but I was hired. God
blessed my efforts as I was promoted 5 times in 2.5 years. But it appeared that
while I worked full time Mike’s health would decline. I took the money I had
saved in my 401K and decided I could make it until Mike was in first grade if I
was given Social Security due to Mike’s special needs. Lots of other CF
families received the extra help – I was told it would be no problem. WRONG. I
was denied. I cleaned more houses and did what was needed to make ends meet.
I was completely out of the job market for 7 years. I
figured my skills were probably out dated but I needed a job so I studied up
and applied. I was once again blessed to get a job that paid the bills. I was
hired full time at Oshkosh Truck Corporation where I had worked right out of
High School. Amazing that God would bless me with steady work. At all three
places, Air Wisconsin, KC and Oshkosh Truck, I was always given the time I
needed to spend every minute with Mike in the hospital. He was never left alone
as a child. If I wasn't with him his father was. Never alone.
I left the job market again to go to College. I went after a
business degree. My hope was that I could increase my earning potential to be
able to afford the increasing expenses of CF and a future transplant. I was
sure that with a degree I wouldn't have to worry so much. I had over 2 years
under my belt when I decided to marry Paul and shortly thereafter was expecting
little Richie. Having a new baby, I went into a completely different career
that would meet our needs but was a huge stretch from my IT background –
childcare. There was no reason I should have been any good at running a child care
center. But God continued to bless my efforts and Jesus’ Little Lambs prospered
despite my lack of education and experience.
Philippians 2:13 "for it is God who works in you
to will and to act according to his good purpose."
After 10 years of working at the church/child care God
blessed us with our David. The hours got to be too much and I left the job
market once again. Being an older mom was tough. I stayed home and did child
care in my home until David was old enough for school.
I thought for sure my earning potential would be close to
nothing but God stepped in once again and allowed me to work at one of the best
employers in Fond du Lac – J. F. Ahern. Again, there was never a question as to
where my first priority lied. I was able to leave when needed to take Mike back
and forth to Madison. I was blessed. But with CF, full time work and two young
kids I started to falter under the stress. I couldn't do that kind of work and
deal with all that was going on as CF started to take my Mikey from me.
I have to say, that as I left that job I wondered if I
would ever work in the business world again. God stepped in again and through
many friends and family members I was encouraged to continue to try. "There are
other business without the high stress levels of project management and
construction," they encouraged me. God blessed me again and the first job I applied for resulted in
a job offer. Divine intervention. Again, I was given the time that I needed to take Mike to the
hospital. As Mike got sicker others stepped in and helped give him
rides back and forth. The rest you can see in past blog posts.
What is the moral of this story?
I might not have job security . . .
I might not get Social Security . . .
But I will always have - God security.
Given only
through God’s amazing grace.
Amen to that.
We pray – give us today our daily bread – but we really
usually don’t mean that. We really want job security, a nice padded bank
account and a sizable 401K or else we worry. But God is always there working
things out for our good just like he promised. God security. Yes, I have been homeless with two kids and I have
lived in what many would consider a mansion. That is amazing grace.
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to
have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content
in any and every
situation, whether well fed or hungry,
whether living in plenty or in want.
I
can do all things through Christ who
strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
People have said to me, “You’re so lucky! You always land
the good jobs!” or “You’re so techno geeky – you’ll always have job security!”
When I hear these remarks I pause and take inventory . . . if left to my own
devices I probably wouldn't have a job at all. To God be the glory. He has and
always will give me God security. I trust Him completely. Forgive me Lord for
the times I have doubted and worried.
The night seems darkest before the dawn. For those of you
looking for work – hang in there. Trust. Yes, I worked hard and studied. God did the rest. Trust. I wish I wouldn't have worried so much. So much
of the sin in my life was a result of that awful thing called worry. Trust Him.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each
day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
Blessings to you! Love, love, love.
3 comments:
Wow. I really needed to read this. Thank you, Gina! Your faith is an inspiration.
Thank you for sharing this!! How I would love to spend time with you and learn from you. I appreciate your thoughts so much. Diane C.
I'm sorry I didn't have longer to talk tonight. Would love to have coffee with you and get to have more conversation time. Diane C.
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