Monday, June 2, 2014

Milestones

This young man has celebrated lots of milestones lately.

Richie was confirmed on April 24, 2014. We are so proud of him. Three confirmations past and one to go. We are so blessed. We had a nice reception for him following the service. Thanks to my mom and my sisters we had lots of food to eat and a pretty cake too. Four of his sponsors were here and two were not feeling well and couldn't make it.

This was my favorite picture taken of Richie that day.



On May 22, 2014 Richie graduated from the 8th Grade. He has been a really great student and gets good grades. This was his most difficult year. He is ready to be in High School. After the closing service the kids were given a reception by the 7th grade class.


The kids were silly and shared silly stories.


I found the evening to be painful. Probably because I have the patience and pain tolerance of a gnat.  I'm not a fan or sarcasm or satire. The thing I enjoyed most was one of Richie's classmates, Noah T, reading a speech about what Christian Education means to him. He did an excellent job writing and giving this speech. It was the highlight of the evening.

Wednesday will be another big day for Richard. He will be getting braces put on his teeth. He's been waiting a long time.

What things are you celebrating?

Blessings to you!

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Nightmares

I’m going to be typing quite a bit about chronic illness in the near future. If our trials in life do nothing more then give someone else hope then that is part of the journey worth documenting. Perhaps someone else will get a take away to use in their situation. Maybe someone else will understand just a little bit better why we might be battle weary for a bit. . .

We are very blessed to have good insurance. When you are dealing with chronic illness your worst nightmare involves not being able to get the medical care or drugs needed to fight off sickness. Like I said, we are very blessed to have good insurance. Not just good insurance but by most standards now days, it is excellent insurance. It is a perk of my husband being in ministry. Even with excellent insurance things can go wrong.

During a hospital admission in March Mike told me that he might need me to help him with an insurance issue. He was having trouble getting one of his meds. It is a very important med if you have CF. The name of the drug is Pulmozyme. In simple terms, Pulmozyme is to CF what insulin is to a diabetic. Simple terms – close enough. Mike was admitted to the hospital and again told me he hadn’t gotten a refill and might need help because he would need the medicine soon. Mike came home from the hospital and a few weeks later still didn’t have the medicine. He said something about how the pharmacy had called and said they needed more information about his insurance and he asked them to call me. Mike is dyslexic and has some other learning disabilities and these issues are not his thing. I never got a phone call and didn’t think much of it. Mike usually makes me aware when I need to step in. During another hospitalization in April Mike said again that he needed help because the pharmacy was bugging him about his insurance. Time to wake up mom. I asked if he had any medicine left and he said no. URGH!

I called our insurance company. A very polite young man named Alex referred me to their Express Scripts department because this specialty drug needed to be handled differently than most of Mike’s drugs. OK, but he assured me nothing had changed with our insurance so this should be a quick fix. I said that something must have changed because we suddenly couldn’t get this script filled. Transfer. The people at Express Scripts informed me that this particular drug was sent to Accredo to get filled. They would transfer me to Accredo. Now to understand this fully (if I’m getting it all right) you need to understand that Accredo is a pharmacy that ships drugs to us. I spoke to someone there and they told me that we can no longer get this drug from them because our insurance won’t allow them to fill the script. I would need to contact CVS Caremark. I asked if I could have that number. “That is all the information we have,” I was told. Logic told me that I needed to go back to my insurance company because something indeed had changed. I couldn’t get this medication from Accredo.

I called our insurance company. A nice young woman answered and I repeated my plight. Oh, you need to speak with Express Scripts. No, I told her, they couldn’t help me the last time. Blah, blah, blah TRANSFER to Express Scripts. I repeated my plight. Oh, we will connect you with the pharmacy that can help you with that. Is it Accredo, because I’ve just gotten off the phone with them and they can’t help me. No, that’s not the number I have here . . . TRANSFER. Hello, this is Accredo . . . sorry we can’t fill that script because your insurance won’t let us. You need to go to CVS Caremark. We have no more information.

I called our insurance company. Alex answered again, oh good, he was such a nice young man. Alex, I still can’t get this medicine because they are saying you won’t let me. Can you help? Well I need to transfer you to Express Scripts . .. NO, PLEASE, they can’t help me. Oh, well they have to. Will you please stay on the line because I am in a REALLY NASTY UGLY LOOP here? I’ve already been on the phone for this for almost 2 hours. Sure, Alex said to pacify me, I’ll stay on the phone. Same loop, only this time Alex is listening in. Express Scripts. . . . and back to Accredo. Your insurance company won’t allow us to fill this . . but wait, I have them on the phone. Alex intervenes and tells this nice man that he is to fill the prescription, what is the issue. The man from Accredo tells him he can’t fill it. After a lot of time we get nowhere and Alex tells me he will follow up and get back to me. Praise God because I’ve now spent 2.5 hours of my work day on the phone and I need to get back to work and this has fried me. I couldn’t have done any more. I give Alex the number to Mike’s doctor’s office so he can let them know where to send the prescription once he figures out where it needs to go. I get a call back the next day and Alex gives me numbers for CVS where I can get the script filled. I call Madison and give them the number. I hear nothing and the next day I call Madison. They were not able to get through to a human being with the number I gave them.

I call my insurance company. Josh answers and I give him my plight. This needs to be escalated . . . here is an escalation number. We will help you until this is resolved. Praise God because I am getting weary and weepy over the maddening situation I am in. Josh calls me back with a new number to use for CVS. I call Madison and give them the information.

The next day I call CVS and they tell me they have NO record of a script. I call Madison. Yes, we sent that by fax and have a confirmation number that they received it yesterday at 9:00 a.m.  I call CVS, oh that may take a few days to get into the system. We get thousands of faxes on that line every day. Call back tomorrow or you could have the doctor’s office call here. No, they said they couldn’t get through. . . I wait a few days. Meanwhile Mike is getting sicker by the day. You can see he isn’t able to keep up without this medicine. He starts home IVs. I call CVS. YES, they have the script . . . but they are very busy. It can take 7 – 10 days to get insurance verification . . .can we expedite? . . . Nope that’s the best they can do. Mike is getting sicker even on IVs. Sunday comes and I can see Mike is just getting weaker by the day even on Zosyn on IVs. I get him admitted to the hospital. Hopefully, this buys some time. I wait a couple of days and I call CVS. Well, we just got this script this morning and it will take 7-10 days to get insurance verification and then another 3 days to ship. AAAAHHHH, are you kidding me?

I call my insurance company. Josh answers and I get him up to date. You STILL don’t have that medicine? Nope, please can you help me? You will be my hero if you can get me this medicine. My son is in the hospital because I haven’t been able to get this medicine. He wants to come home soon. Please Josh help me . . . I will escalate this as far up the ladder as I can. We will get this fixed. Thank you Josh, that would be great. And, Josh adds, “Thanks for not being nasty. I can’t imagine how frustrating this has been.” No problem Josh, thank you for helping me. Another day goes by and Josh calls back. He gives me the name of a woman from the insurance office that hires out his company. We’ll call her Susie. Susie will is working on this to see what is going on and will call you tomorrow. Oh, thank you because my son has been in the hospital over a week and he would like to come home. Meanwhile, Shopko pharmacy in town calls me to tell me they have a script for Pulmozyme. Would I like them to fill it? Oh, you can fill it? Well there is a bit of a co pay . . . How much I ask. $5500. How much without the co pay? $5500. HELLO, that is because they won’t allow you to fill it! Oh, that’s why I thought we would check before we ordered it. The doctors in Madison were trying to get this filled and sent it to them. No go.

The next day Susie calls me. She is revved up. She has been on the phone trying to get to the bottom of all this. She tells me that Alex and Josh can’t help me that I needed to speak to her. She gives me her direct number. I feel like I am being scolded for calling Josh and Alex. I say, “But that is the number on the back of the insurance card . . .” Well they can’t help they are just eligibility . . . then why didn’t they know to transfer me to you?” I’m feeling slightly defensive because I’m not really sure what I did WRONG  but apparently there was something. I don’t really care, can we just move on to get this resolved? I can’t even remember what all was said but I pleaded with her that I need this medicine because my son wants to come home from the hospital. She says she will get back to me.

Susie calls back the next day and is revved up again. I totally get that. She tells me that the reason Accredo couldn’t fill the prescription is because AARP is Mike’s primary insurance carrier and that they require CVS to fill the script. I will have to talk to them. WHAT? Wait a minute. What is AARP? When did they become primary? You are our primary insurance! What is going on here? Who is AARP? I don’t know, Susie tells me, but that is what Accredo said. But you are our primary insurance. Someone made an ugly mistake (things are starting to crystalize now). Well, you will need to call them and fix it, Susie tells me. What? Why me? I don’t really care that CVS thinks they need to fill this. I don’t really care that AARP thinks they are primary. I don’t really care that someone made a mistake. . . You are my primary insurance. I have a prescription. How do I get it filled! I’m sorry, my boss won’t let me go any further until you make sure that CVS doesn’t ship that medicine to you. We don’t want to pay for it twice. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? (How will you pay for it twice when you are saying you aren’t even the primary – has everyone lost their minds?) I want to cry, I want to hang up, I want to enter the fetal position and never look up again. How is this happening? I can’t take any more. . . I take a deep breath and very calmly say to Susie, “Susie, you sound like you are in an emotionally charged state, would you like me to call you back at a better time?” Long silence on the phone . . . No, I want to help you, comes the reply from Susie. Oh, I’m glad to hear that because I could really use your help.” I tell Susie. Susie, you are my primary insurance. I don’t know how Accredo got the information that AARP is primary. Maybe my very learning disabled son who is in end-stage CF, during one of his drug induced stuppors, gave someone bad information. I don’t know. Does it matter? They are not going to ship that medicine from CVS without the right authorization which they will soon find out they don’t have. You are my primary insurance carrier and I have a prescription. How do I get it filled? Susie pauses, seems confused and starts the same lingo once again. I stop her as politely as possible and I repeat, “Susie, you are my primary insurance company. I have a prescription. How do I get it filled?” Susie says she will continue to work on this and get back to me. I tell Susie that it is now Wednesday and my son would like to come home this week. It has been two weeks since he was admitted. Will I be able to get this shipped this week? I ask. Susie says she will see what she can do.

The next day Susie calls back to tell me everything has been cleared up. Accredo is going to call me but they won’t be able to get the medicine this week. I want to cry but I am grateful it sounds like this nightmare is soon ending. I thank her for helping me. She gives me her direct number to call her if I need anything else. Accredo calls to verify shipping information. They will be able to get the medicine to me on Saturday. Praise God. Mike will only miss one or two doses. I’ll have Mike stay in the hospital on Friday long enough to get at least one dose of this medicine he needs twice a day, I think to myself. I’m uncomfortable that he has to miss any doses given where he is at with his disease but I feel helpless to fix this. I concede. An hour later I get another call from Accredo. It is from a Minnesota number. Hi I’m Tom and I’m going to get your medicine to you on Friday. What? Really? Yep, I just need to verify some information. We go through it ALL AGAIN. Frustrating but I am thankful we will get the medicine on Friday, God willing. We finish and Tom says, now when I hang up my worst nightmare begins. I can relate. Interesting choice of words . . . God bless Tom, he has to figure out how to get this medicine to me in less than 24 hours.

 Friday, Mike is happy to be getting ready to leave the hospital. Aunt Cathy is going to pick him up. I am grateful because I have already missed so much work trying to get this issue resolved. I call home and no medicine. Please text me when it comes. Hubby calls at around Noon. The medicine has arrived. I breathe a big sigh of relief. Praise God. No really, Praise God. Another battle won . . .

If you’ve read this far . . . thanks for listening. Keep on fighting!

 
Love, love, love

Sunday, August 11, 2013

What I See

This is what I see:


That was from August 1 - 8


And it encourages me. All that and I hadn't even been posting much. Thanks for stopping by to our little corner of the world.

I will give you an update on Mike's med list soon. So glad he is home.

Something to contemplate:

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
 
When friends betray us
 When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,  This is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

"Blessings" to you

Friday, August 9, 2013

There should be a difference . . . right?

Mike is home . . .

And he should feel like he is home . . .

There should be a difference . . .

When you are at the hospital . . . you know you are at the hospital. Someone could blindfold you right now and take you to a hospital room and take it off and you would instantly know you are in a hospital room, right?

Well the same should be true when you get home . . . you should be able to tell the difference, right?!?

For Mike, it hasn't really been feeling like that.

"Mom, I used to go to the hospital . . . and then I would come home. I would leave the hospital . . . at the hospital. But now CF and the hospital come home with me. . ."

I spent part of everyday while Mike was gone for 10 days rearranging his living quarters on the 3rd floor. There is no way to completely erase CF from his everyday life but with some creative planning I was able to subdue it some. It was also time for his old couch to go. It is fabric and the ability for it to house germs concerned me. Our leather love seat is now on the 3rd floor (have I ever mentioned what an amazing hubby I have??). A little step, but every step
matters, right? I hope there is a difference.

I got lots of HAPPY MAIL this week! Twenty-one scrapbook pages and 320 pictures. I ordered the scrapbook pages from Persnickety Prints. They were only $1.99 each. Great price considering what other places can charge. The photos I got were from Shutter-fly. I haven't gotten pictures developed for over a year and a half. I always love to get pictures and I love that Shutterfly puts the file name on the back of each photo. The paper quality is excellent (not to thin - has some substance to it) but can I say I am just a little disappointed? I took the time to Photoshop some of the pics and they didn't turn out that great. Any borders I did were off - way off. Some even went off the side of the paper. I guess it's back to the drawing board for me.

Here are some of the digital pages I did. Love to get happy mail!




This one is my favorite!
 

 





Love, love, love

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Kind of a Bust

David got a bad boo boo last night. He took Richie's scooter for a little spin and took a corner too fast:


Poor thing. He didn't really even cry. But, I don't think he'll be riding ANYTHING for a while.

We still decided to go to Bay Beach in Green Bay. We don't have many days left and this was a great opportunity. The weather was perfect - mostly sunny, high around 80 and Gage was with us. Can't ask for more than that!

We got there and headed right for the big roller coaster. To Richard's disappointment, no one else wanted to go on the ride with him. Gage had been to a Fair with his mom earlier in the summer and puked after a ride . . . no go for him. David probably wouldn't have gone even if he could open his eyes . . . no way for him. I have been dealing with motion sickness issues (may have to blog about that another time). I was fighting to hang in there just from walking across the park - just looking at the rides was enough to push me over the edge . . . NO way for me! Thankfully, dad said he would go with Richie.


NO THANK YOU!

Ahhhh, this is more like it . . .


I even started to regain some equilibrium. This was the only ride David went on all day. Gage wanted to go on it so badly but was told he was too tall. He was so disappointed. He wanted to ride it with his Uncle David. There wasn't much left for Gage and I could see his disappointment but he was a trooper. Then we came across the bumper cars!


Perfect! He would get off and get right back in line. David road along with dad on one trip.
Richie got dad to go on that roller coaster THREE times! Did I say NO THANKS yet?!?


All in all, when you're with family it is always a good time! Many happy memories made!

Mike had his PFTs today. FEV1 was 43%!! Praise God!! He is coming home tomorrow. Can't wait to go pick him up. Miss that young man!!

Hope you had a great day too! Blessings to you!
And remember, Love, love, love!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

The -ing List

working on organizing - everything!
watching my boys grow
drinking anything without caffeine
listening to paperclipping roundtable 
trying to remember God's forgiveness
wearing sandals
preparing for another school year
eating lots
loving a couple of very special women who have encouraged me
revisiting my photos
continuing to persevere
wanting Mike to be home
laughing at my boys and my grandson
brainstorming with hubby on his new class structure
enjoying new opportunities
feeling like life is good
believing that we all move on . . . all things happen for a reason
praying for peace

Mike will be doing PFTs tomorrow. He is planning to come home on Friday.

David got a nasty boo boo. Tough little guy.

Gage is spending the night. Special times.

More to share . . .







Love, love, love . . .

Thursday, August 1, 2013

What room is Mike in?

Julie was asked this question before Mike's birthday. A friend wanted to send him a birthday card and the past few years has had to send them to the hospital.

"He's not in the hospital!" was Julie's answer. And for that we are grateful. Not only because it wouldn't be any fun stuck in isolation on your birthday but also because he just got out of the hospital on June 28 and that would make it less than a month!

Mike turned 30 on July 25th. A blessing.

On July 30th he returned to the hospital. His room number is D6/534.

On June 17 he was admitted to the hospital, not feeling well, tired, yucky. Lungs were at 41%. Two weeks later he was discharged and lungs were at 39%. Mike was disappointed. Seemed like a lot of work and suffering to lose 2%. But still, he felt better and Mike always perseveres...makes the best of things. He was able to attend a charity Harley ride and visit friends. The difficulty breathing and going up stairs came back quickly.

He was admitted with his lungs around 30% on Tuesday, July 30. Oxygen sats were at 94%. Thankful he didn't need immediate oxygen. Took a while to get his room. The room is so small people were bumping into me so I left until they got his port started. It was accessed successfully.

I was able to take Mike to the hospital. I hope to go back and see him soon. I have more time now that I am not working.

More to come. Love, love, love.