Remember

I know, I know...
I'm incessant....but you said "Pray without ceasing" and you knew I was like this.
My other bosses know I'm like this too...Just ask Pastor Nauman or Dave.....they have to put up with me too. I know Pastor Nauman isn't my boss any more but he's still part of the plan and he's going to be contacting you soon.

Do you remember this conversation I had with Katie when she was 4 years old?

"Mommy, why do you pound on Mikey?"
Me: So he doesn't get sick.
"Oh, and what if he get's sick?
Me: Then we will take him to the doctor and they will make him better.
"Oh, and what if the doctor can't make him better?
Me: Then we will take him to the hospital and they will make him better - you know that Katie, you come there with us.
"Oh, yeah, that's right Mommy" and she scampered happily away. And in a moment she returned with a serious look on her face and put her hand on my shoulder and tipped her head and said, "And Mommy, what if the hospital can't make Mikey better?"
And I looked her right in the eye God, and you told me to say, "Then Jesus will take him and make him all better." Elated and with a giggle Katie said, "Oh, YES JESUS!"

I didn't lie did I?

So God, I can't pound on Mikey anymore.
And I can't take him back to the doctor because he has hospice instead.
And I can't take him to the hospital because he has a DNR.
So I think it is your turn now right God?

That's our plan right?

I'm getting a little excited. There is this joy coming that is new to me today. I guess you must be on your way. I'm glad I didn't lie to Mikey's sister Katie.

I couldn't sleep last night God, because I hadn't asked my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray for Mike while he sleeps. I know you promised that Mike can't be snatched from your had but you also told us all to pray. It's going to get loud.

I know I keep asking about your timing. And everyday you show me the blessings you are giving Mike and me through this pain. Thank you for always knowing what's best and having my back.

CF got much bigger than Mikey God.
And Mikey's legacy is getting much bigger than me. Help me to help them too God. It's not just about Mikey and me. There are so many that need your comfort.

Can you help them all to "love it forward?"
There are dancers and brothers and siblings and CFers and moms and dads. And maybe God, if you don't mind, you could get them all together. So that we can all feel comfort during this game plan.
They all need this peace that you've given me and Mikey, K?

Hospice nurse said you are coming soon so I'm going to go get ready now. I hope I am in the room when you get there. I told Mikey I would put his hand in yours because he will be sleeping. It's all part of the plan God, Right?

We patiently await your arrival. Thank you God, I have peace. My heart is so full.